I Just Want To Be Wonderful

Ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted to do something bigger than myself. 

I can remember when I was a freshman in high school we had to make these freshman binders--and they each included our own sort of "mission statement".

Mine was a quote:

I remember getting a lot of grief from my counselor about this quote.

I went to an all girl's private school--and we were being bred for success. 

I didn't want to make money? I just wanted to be wonderful? What did that even mean? 

I just wanted to make a difference.

I wanted to be remembered. 

I wanted to be different.

I still do.

I don't want to be famous or in history books anymore.

I just want to make an impact.

I want to inspire.

I want to make a change.

I just want to be wonderful. 

Where's The Fun In That?

A lot of you know that I don't drink anymore.

By that I mean I'll have a glass of wine once a month if that.

The last time I had a mixed drink? More than a year ago.

I'll have a beer if I go to a brewery or to a bar..but let me tell you how often that is.

I do enjoy alcohol--don't get me wrong! I think there are appropriate times to drink, but I always drink in moderation now. I couldn't tell you the last time I had more than 2 adult beverages in a night. Actually, I probably could. And it was over a year ago. 

Do I judge you if you drink?

No.

Well, maybe. But only if you're belligerent. 

Do I still want to hang out with you if you're drinking and I'm not?

Of course! 

Well, unless you're belligerent. 

It doesn't bother me one little bit to be the girl drinking water when everyone else is slamming down beers/vodka sprites/wine coolers.

So, why does it bother you?

I had my days (however short lived) of partying and thinking it was funny to have a little too much to drink.

But not anymore.

This weekend I heard "where's the fun in that?" in regards to me not drinking. 

Well, here's my answer:

I just don't see the fun in drinking until you're sick.

Do you like throwing up?

I didn't think so. Me either.

I just don't see the fun in being around people that are falling over they are so drunk.

Do you like making fun of people in a vulnerable state? 

You might. I don't. It's sad.

I just don't see the fun in watching girls lose all sense of their morals after one too many fruity drinks.

Do you like watching someone "hook up" with a complete stranger?

I don't.

I just don't see the fun in passing out in a lawn chair instead of in my bed.

Do you like sleeping outside in the cold over in a warm bed?

You might, I doubt it...but you might. I don't.

I just don't see the fun in waking up extremely 

sick.

Do you like feeling like crap in the morning? 

I don't.

Maybe it's because I feel like I've grown out of it.

Maybe it's because I don't feel the need to forget the night. 

Maybe it's because I don't like what it does to my body/skin/overall health.

Whatever my reasons are--what matters is that I never regret not drinking the night before.

Have you ever regretted drinking the night before? 

Be safe, y'all! 

xoxo

Time to Breathe

Well, I've made a decision and I just wanted to give every one the low down on it so there weren't any rumors or speculation. 

I'm taking a quarter (possibly two) off!!

I have been going non-stop for over a year with a full class load and working and being the perfectionist that I am..it's taken a toll on me. 

Then there are all of the things happening at home that I wish I was there for.

The people I wish I was there for.

Then of course there is this little thing called a wedding I have to prepare for.

Oh!

And it's not just MY wedding that is coming up, but also my best friend's, my future sister in law's, as well as another friend of mine all before December! Yippee! 

Therefore, I need to take a little time to breathe.
I need some time to gather myself and my thoughts.
I need a chance to close my eyes and take a deep breath.
I feel like I'm drowning.
I don't want to sink, I want to swim.

So.

I'm taking the summer quarter off to work and makes LOTS OF MONEY! Well, that's the plan anyway. I'll be working just about every chance I can get so that I can fully support myself for at least a little while if not the rest of the time until I get married. (eee!!!) 

Then in September I am going to take a trip home and stay for a few months--IF I can get someone to sublet my apartment! 

So, if you know anyone that would like to spend their fall quarter in downtown Seattle in a fully furnished apartment with some seriously sweet amenities, tell them to holler atcha girl. ;)